Hey, it’s Friday again! That means it’s time for Faceless Friday. Let’s talk about what rocked our faces off this week! 

Patience.  I am grateful for my own patience more than anything.  I have dealt with back issues since I was 19.  Getting injections, MRIS, doing physical therapy, all the things for my entire adult life. I have had surgeries, nerve blocks of all kinds, you name it I have had it done to my back, so it always PISSES me off when people tell me what I need to be doing for my back or act like I don’t know what I am talking about. Like at 45 years old I haven’t fucking tried everything to make my life easier and better and not have to crawl on the floor a few weeks out of the year.  It’s the same with my allergies.  They are outrageous.  I have to take two different kinds of allergy meds JUST to function, and that barely touches them, and that’s also with eating local honey and getting an allergy shot.  It is fucking maddening having to defend how I feel and what is happening in my own body to people.  As if I am not an expert on it.  As if it is not controlled and moved by my own brain.  So, patience.  Patience rocks my face off this week.  Patience to not tell people to fuck off when they are just trying to be helpful but forget to be mindful.  Patience to practice the pause of not reacting but instead responding when sometimes I really want to respond with “Ah, no shit, I should have thought of that” when what they brought up rage inducing.  Don’t get me wrong, I am sure I do this too, try to be helpful when I should just shut up.  I think it is in our nature to either want to help or to show off our knowledge. Either way, patience rocks my face off and keeps me out of jail.  

Realities and Truths.  With Aries being all up in everyone’s business this week a lot of things are coming up for people to deal with.  For me this has been a relationship and the fact that I really just do not want one.  I thought I did for a minute there, the thought crossed my mind, but the more I have really reflected on it the more unwilling I am to compromise my life and what I want from a man. I think I liked the idea of companionship and having someone to count on and talk with about things happening and going on throughout my day (my girls are always busy running their lives, as baddies do), but I don’t know if I even want that really.  I think sometimes we just want someone to say “hey, you are stunning and it’s amazing that you do all of these things” but I think maybe it’s healthier if we do that for ourselves? I know that sounds so fucking cliche and shallow, but I mean actually, while we are in the midst of being brilliant being able to say to ourselves “fuck yes, I’m a god damn badass” or whatever else compliments we prefer. Of course outside validation feels wicked good, but anymore does it carry any weight?  These thoughts rock my face off because they are important and lead to healing and growth. 

Large Buildings with big damage. Do you think this blog is monitored yet? Like I am on a list somewhere of people to look out for because I talk shit about billionaires and our  (USA) government? I know my TikTok is, it fucking better be anyway or I am doing something wrong over there.  I have had so much pride and joy this week seeing patriots burning things.  What a fucking statement.  You know when I was a teenager, I was so proud of myself for buying a new can of OFF bug spray for the whole family to use and I was showing my Grandpa.  He asked how much it cost.  At the time I believe it was around $7. He asked me how many hours I had to work to buy that bug spray.  Blew my mind.  The minimum wage at that time was around $4.  If you look at today’s minimum wage on average being $7.25, and that same bug spray being $14 now. Nothing has changed. Except for now you can’t rent anything less than $1,500 (and that is in the Midwest I hate to think about West and East Coast), mortgage rates are outrageous and now we have credit scores. The “middle class” is all based on credit cards, loans, and the like and not actual cash value and those of us that depend on disability and social security are barely eating.  I say let it all burn to the fucking ground and start all over.  This running a country as a corporation only works for the rich and it’s time for the people to matter. People waking up and taking a stand rocks my face off. 

That’s all I have for today.  Josie dog is begging for an adventure so we are gonna load up on more allergy meds and hit a trail somewhere.  Here is the quick list for the week, in no particular order (besides coffee): 

Coffee (forever and ever amen), not losing my shit on people when I want to rage, warmer weather, hugs from the kiddo, hazelnut creamer, all the plants and flowers returning to my flower beds!, bees, lilacs getting ready to bloom, sunrises, running water, strength training, painting, naps, the Roku app on the phone since the kid has lost another remote, not knowing how we will make it to the end of the month but somehow always making it, music, and YOU dear reader. Thank you for being here again this week. You are noticed, appreciated and needed. Thank you.