Good morning Craughers! It’s a foggy and wet day here in Craughing land, which isn’t helping the bone pain, but does offer for some pretty cool aesthetics while contemplating this week’s gratitude. As many of you know Faceless Friday is where we dig deep for our gratitude and list out what has rocked our faces off during the past week. Let’s get started!

Goals. I think I mentioned last week that I never had goals before. Not for myself and my life anyway.  I was always too scared something was going to come in and screw them up for me (because that was always the case) and I always put everyone’s comfort and happiness before my own, so making my own goals felt selfish and scary.  With a lot of blind faith, a lot of “I’m not sure how this is going to work” I have made a list of achievements, goals and dreams that I refuse to believe won’t happen, and happen soon.  I am working hard at manifesting and focusing my attitude towards abundance and happiness.  Healing generational trauma surrounding thinking that caused multiple suicides and depressed thinking. Working hard at making the ancestors and future generations proud and secure.  Believing that anything is possible, and that THAT ANYTHING will be absolutely BEAUTIFUL and real rocks my face off!!

Friends. My crew always pulling through for me day in and day out rocks my face off.  Reminding me that I am worthy of love, friendship and care NOW is such a beautiful blessing.  I am so blessed to be reminded daily that no matter how shitty I feel physically or mentally or how low or negative my bank account is, I have friends that love me for who I am as a person, just as I am; that rocks my face off. So damn grateful for you, thank you. Sincerely, and always. Thank you.

Mister Man. My five year old son. He absolutely hates school and tells me every day he “just doesn’t want to do this” and that he shouldn’t have to.  But he does.  He keeps going and keeps trying.  He is such a sensitive, kind and loving child (but also a complete meanie to his momma btw) and he is showing me every day that sometimes we just have to.  We just have to keep showing up because we have too.  He reminds me of why I’m fighting and what I am working for.  I appreciate him so damn much and I am so grateful to be his Momma. That kiddo rocks my face off every day and I love watching him bloom. 

Pain, Agony and Distress. Yes, this week I am grateful for my bones grinding together in my neck.  I am grateful for not being able to sleep, I am grateful for the ways my body has reminded me of the real and necessary help it needs.  I have been doing too much. Occupying my mind and time with anything but focusing on me and what steps I need to take to secure my future and my body was like “jigs up bitch, time to pause” and then wouldn’t even let me sit at this computer without crying.  I am grateful for the physical reminder of how carrying the weight of worry and poverty reflects in me.  I am grateful that it is helping me to think of more ways to help others.  This body has hurt me more than helped me, and for all of those lessons I am grateful. 

Okay loves, let’s do the weekly roundup of gratitude! In no particular order here are things that have rocked my face off:

Coffee, music, heating pads, ice packs, pain pills, The Dollar Tree (even if they are $1.25 now), having the cash I needed for my son’s field trip money!!, the back pack program at Mister Man’s school that sends some snacks home for the weekend, food and pantry banks!!, this old dusty laptop that is still kicking!, Straightalk and phone service, the internet, The Beasts (the dogs), having a vehicle to borrow, sugar, the money on it’s way to cover gas and toilet paper and the electric bill, manifesting bigger and better things, writing, trees, running water, a good bed, a place to live, and YOU for being here and reading. Thank you dear Craughers for being here. You always rock my face off!