Yes, it’s Sunday, yes I put Friday’s date for this post anyway. It’s my blog and I’ll do what I want! I had every intention of writing yesterday but I took care of my heart instead. November 1st is a hard day for me as that is when my boyfriend in high school passed away. Some years it’s cool. like okay, that’s something that happened, and some years I feel like that 18 year old kid again laying so still in my grief and bed that I thought I could actually die from heartbreak. I sure as hell tried… but I didn’t. I survived and I am here and you are here and we are gonna share what rocked our faces off this past week! Welcome back to Faceless Friday! Let’s fuckin gooooo!

Halloween. So, because Kit passed away after leaving a Halloween party I quit celebrating Halloween… until my kid decided it’s his absolute favorite thing. (Of course). That first year I had my foster daughters was the first I had celebrated in 20 years, but my goodness do we do it big now. Cause of course this kid has specific ideas for costumes and of course I have to make them (because of who I am as a person). This year he was a Warden (a bad guy) from Minecraft. He wore his costume a decent amount of time too! Like way longer than I expected. (I was super grateful my brother helped carry it!) We had a good night. It was different than the last three Halloweens, but we had fun. Had dinner with the family and even visited with Grandma and my other brother made the kids pumpkin shaped/decorated brownies. Dealing with grief and moving through life rocks my face off.

Boundaries like a Muthaphucka. So, I have struggled with boundaries my ENTIRE life… so damn much. I can tell you so many terrible things that have happened because of my lack of boundaries in the past. What’s crazy now is I have them and that’s just it. I don’t even second guess them like I used to, or try and talk myself out of them (iykyk). If I don’t like something in my life and I can change it, I do. The world is too much of a dumpster fire to let people close to you also shit on you. I’m done apologizing for my feelings and letting people play stupid when they know what the fuck they are doing. Being even more authentic rocks my face off.

Still choosing Kindness. And you can have all those boundaries and not be a dick! Well, unless they deserve it… and sometimes they deserve it! What I mean to say is the world is showing us a lot of cold hard truths right now, many that people didn’t know, or didn’t want to see. We should (probably) do our best to be kind and gentle in these times. (I am not talking about the ones being willfully ignorant btw, fuck them) I am talking about the ones that believed they had a safety net, and help, and now are learning they do not. It is our job as a people to build community right now and help one another. Even if people get SNAP, even if resources are “miraculously” fixed (puke) we need to continue to build community. People, even with benefits, are unable to afford food. Heating and electric costs are outrageous. Many are choosing which bills to ignore so they can feed their families (me!). Let’s show kindness, understanding, and help where we can, even if that is to say “me too. I see you. This sucks. We will do this TOGETHER”.

Okay, I have rambled enough for today. Let’s do our round up list. In no particular order (you know the drill) here is what else rocked my face off this week:

COFFEE!!!!, sugar, water, sunshine, rainbow looking sunrises, making new friends, having old friends, being able to cut my own hair (yeah it’s a flex), blocking people, good soap, lotion, using a quilt that is older than I am, not turning the heat on yet!!, my neighbor’s homemade pizza, my kiddo’s teacher conference going better than I thought, my kiddo being hilarious (sometimes this sucks though), the doggos, adding o’s to everything in the last couple of things, the cattos, the plantos, musicos, OHHHH Florence and the Machine’s new album is FIRE!!!! so fucking good, also the kid and I have been listening to Sleep Token almost nonstop for a few months now, and YOU dear Craugher! Thank you for being here! I appreciate you so much and am so grateful you are here!!

All love. All ways. Always.

Craughing Girl.