Hey, it’s Friday again. That means it’s time for Faceless Friday and time to list out what we are grateful for and what has rocked our faces off this past week.  It has been a hard week in Craughing Land, but I have found that those weeks are the most important to find gratitude in. Let’s go.  

Nico Harper, Man Dawg Extraordinaire.  My old man dog, Nico, passed on Sunday morning and as soul level devastating as that has been, I am grateful he is no longer suffering as the last two days of his life were pretty hard.  I am grateful I got to feed him snow (his favorite) and rub his paws and between his eyes just like he liked as he was releasing his time here.  He was the most fantastic dog and my perfect match for the last fifteen years.  I am so grateful for the seventeen years he was on Earth.  How he protected my heart, my back, and my feelings every day.  We are pretty lost without him, but still so grateful to have had such a long time with him.  My absolute soul level love and best friend.  Having known the love and devotion of such a dog rocks my face off.  

Friends, near and far. In true Craughing Girl fashion I am in shut down mode and do not want to actually talk to anyone.  I am so grateful to my friends and family that understand this about me and don’t take it personally.  Part of my healing process has always been to take a step back until I can talk more easily.  I am sure this comes from childhood trauma, but I am too exhausted with grief to care and to hurt to try and manage people and how they feel I should be reacting.  I am glad my group of people just know and get me. It rocks my face off to be able to just be me. 

Court.  Moodswing Maverick (my child’s father) has requested some parenting time after not seeing our son in FIVE YEARS.  Not only that he blantly lied on the court paperwork so I am super excited to get that all straightened out at our new court date! I hope he brings his wife so she can hear what a liar he has been.  How he was the one that asked we not go to court three years ago and make an agreement, but then he couldn’t follow through.   

Okay, I think that’s enough for this week.  Kiddo and I have Influenza B so I’m ready to go back to bed already.  Here is the round up list for the week: 

Coffee, music, warm weather, Josie Girl handling the passing of her best friend pretty well, having a plan for the downfall of people, health insurance for the kiddo, heat in the house when the weather decided to drop 30 degrees overnight, good face wash, YouTube and my brother letting me use his family plan, watching trash tv when I can’t stop crying, being able to cry and not be mean, being the type of mom that my kid feels comfortable with in all the ways (think extreme goofy to extreme sensitive and all the in-between), God and the Goddesses hearing my pain and taking me seriously, knowing that my magic just keeps getting faster and stronger, not freaking out about bills because it always works out, and YOU dear reader. Thank you for being here.  I appreciate you, 

Much love, in all ways, always. 

Craughing Girl.